Not like every other girl
One thing I absolutely hate...when people judge me, especially when they're judging me for something they are just as guilty of doing. One of my friends pretty much blasted me out last night for continuing to go back to a guy who keeps hurting me. Well, he's been doing the same thing with the girl he likes. He even texted me over the weekend so hurt by something she did but then they were suddenly okay again. And he's judging me? Right, that makes a bunch of sense...NOT. A piece of advice to everyone, think about it before you go and judge someone. They don't need to hear your criticism. They're telling you things because they need your advice, support, and love. When you tell them that they're dumb for doing something they're just going to shut themselves off from you. You're risking losing a friend. That's what he's done. I'm not going to just sit back and let him tell me I'm like every other girl. I know that I'm not and for him to tell me that I am hurts...especially considering he used to claim he was in love with me. I didn't used to just be another girl in his life. I was the most important girl to him at one point. I think what hurts the most is that his view of me has changed so much. I've now become one of those girls who only pays attention to the guys who hurt me...at least in his eyes I have. I don't tell him half of what's going on in my heart though. How could I though? How the hell do I tell him that I've put up a wall so I don't let myself get hurt? So that maybe the tears will stop falling. So maybe I won't care so much anymore. I'm just confused. He used to be one of the few people I could tell everything to and now I can't even tell him half of what is going on. Who do I turn to now? There aren't many people I tell everything to and those I do tell are at least a few hours away from me. Right now I just need someone to hug me and tell me I'm doing the right thing. That everything will be okay in the end. That he doesn't deserve my time. He doesn't realize that he's just become another guy who has hurt me. Well, I'm taking his advice and not going back to him. Because then maybe I won't be like every other girl. I'm not like every other girl, and anyone who knows me should know that.
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