Soaring Heart Creations

I'm not quite sure where to go from here. I saw C about a week and a half ago after six years of not seeing him. He's definitely changed for the better. I don't think I've ever heard him talk as much as he did. Aside from that a lot of things have been changing. I've been spending a lot of time with my friends who are gonna be at App with me next year. That's been good because I know that I'll have a lot of fun with them next year. On the other hand I haven't been spending a lot of time with my other friends which I kind of feel bad about but if we're meant to be friends it will all work out. I'm a little frustrated now. I keep thinking that I've found a great guy...then somehow he lets me down. I don't know why I always expect more out of guys than I should. If I don't expect anything then there's no way they can let me down. Well, a new guy (okay he's not new cause I've known him for about two years now) is coming into the picture. I'm not sure what I think about him cause I've always just seen him as a friend. He's a great guy though. He really is. I'm gonna try to give him a chance because I mean I've been let down so much before that at least if he lets me down at least I'll know how to deal with it. Okay, I'm done ranting and raving now. Final exams are upon me so I've got to go study!

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Well, summer is finally here. Actually it's been here for a while for me but finally all of the seniors are done. Congratulations to the class of '09! It's exciting, right? I'm glad that I finally have a job. It's definitely keeping me from being bored every single day this summer. I have orientation next friday and I am soooo excited. I'll get to register for classes and take that last step towards officially being a student at Appalachian State :) I'm not quite sure when I'll move into my apartment. That really depends on when everyone else is going up. Most of my friends are leaving on August 15th but I can start moving my stuff in on the 10th. I doubt I'll actually go up that early though. I've started my novel! I'm really excited about it too. I don't have that much of it written yet but it's definitely doing somewhere. My goal is to finish it by the end of the summer but I don't know if that's actually going to happen. I just want to be able to finish it eventually and I will be very happy. It's been a rough road getting to the point where I have finally been able to find that inspiration inside myself. But I've found it and I don't think I could be happier. Things are changing in my life and it's definitely for the better. Keep me in your prayers :)

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